So depressed. Struggling

I’m really struggling right now. My depression is overwhelming, and my anxiety has reached an all-time high. I feel like I’m on the brink of breaking down, and I’ve been contemplating telling my family that I need to go to a mental hospital. But I’m terrified that if I sign myself in, I won’t be able to leave.

Most of my thoughts are consumed by a fear of dying. I know this must sound silly to some, but I just can’t find meaning in trying to live when we all have to face death eventually. I’m struggling to accept the reality of life, and I don’t know how to cope with it.

Sometimes I wish I had the courage to end this pain, but I don’t, and I’m not sure if that’s a good thing. I really don’t know how much longer I can endure this torment. Yesterday, I went to my local mental health clinic looking for help, but it felt like they just wanted to prescribe more pills instead of addressing my real issues.

I’m sorry for this long rant, but I’m barely hanging on and feeling so tormented. Please, will this suffering ever end for me? :confounded:

I’m really sorry to hear you’re feeling this way, but I want you to know that happiness is possible again. If you understand what’s causing your unhappiness, please share it with your family or a counselor—they can help you. A friend of mine sought help and spent seven months in a mental hospital, and she’s now happier than ever. She found it more effective than the medication she was on.

Please don’t let this situation become like what happened to my older cousin, who took his own life at 17. He didn’t seek help because he thought it was too late. You deserve support and a chance to find happiness. Please consider reaching out for help. You can get through this. x

I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It takes a lot of courage to express what you’re going through, and I want you to know that you’re not alone in this. Your feelings are valid, and it’s understandable to feel overwhelmed.

It’s important to reach out for help, whether that’s talking to your family, a friend, or a mental health professional. I know it can be daunting to think about going into a mental hospital, but it can also be a place of support and healing. You deserve to find relief from the pain you’re experiencing.

Please consider exploring different avenues of support, whether it’s therapy, support groups, or other resources. If medication isn’t addressing your needs, it’s okay to seek alternatives.

Remember, there is hope for brighter days ahead, even if it feels impossible right now. Take it one step at a time, and please keep sharing your thoughts here. We’re here for you.