i’ve kept a log since month 3 - triggers, recovery time, the setup. thought after 18 months i’d spot the pattern. turns out it’s messier than that. some crashes are obvious.
pushed past my window, paid for it, predictable… but there’s this other crash that sneaks in on what looked like a normal week. low activity, pacing felt right. then wednesday i’m on the floor for 4 days and i have no idea why.
that’s the one that frightens me. what i’ve figured out: the setup matters more than the crash… what was my sleep like the week before? did i skip meals?
was there a flare in joint pain or orthostatic stuff i dismissed? the crash doesn’t come from the final straw - it comes from a shaky foundation. i can’t predict the exact day… but i can feel when i’m close to the edge.
does anyone else find that your crashes come from invisible stuff days before?