Being too aware of reality

Hi everyone,

I’ve been diagnosed recently with an anxiety disorder and i’m on my first week on escitalopram after trying citalopram which didn’t seem to help.

For the past two weeks I’ve been struggling with a thought/feeling that I’m overly aware about my own existence and consciousness, those “flashes of consciousness” makes everything feels weird and different. I know it sounds crazy but it’s like I’m afraid of being alive, like I suddenly realized that I’m human and alive and stuck in my body.

It seems like I can’t get this thought out of my head. I’ve read somewhere that it might be “hyper awareness OCD” .

Is anyone ever felt like that before??

I don’t want to be scared of living…