hey everyone, been a minute. things are still… a lot, obviously. niall is 10 mos now, pulling up on everything, trying to eat floor dust.
so that’s where my energy goes, naturally. but i was thinking about it the other night. we were trying to have a conversation, just me and my partner, after niall finally crashed for a decent stretch. and i realized i just don’t have it in me.
not sex, necessarily, but just… that closeness. i remember at like 6 mos pp everyone was like, ‘oh, you’ll be feeling more like yourself soon!’ and i thought okay, maybe. but it’s been 10 mos.
sometimes i just want to be left alone, honestly. the thought of someone touching me after a day of being touched constantly, nursing, lifting, bouncing, it’s just… too much. i started trying to track my energy and my mood swings around 6 mos pp just to see if there