at 11 weeks pp with a 2nd degree tear that still hurts when i sit certain ways, the “baby on a firm surface, separate sleep space” thing feels theoretical. like, if my body didn’t feel destroyed, maybe i’d have the energy to get up every 2-3 hours, walk to the bassinet, feed from a chair without putting pressure on my scar tissue. instead we’ve been cosleeping since week 4. baby sleeps between us on a pillow, i’m on my side because lying flat makes the tear feel like it’s ripping again, and somehow this is the only setup where all three of us sleep 3-hour stretches.
when my pediatrician asked if we’re following safe sleep guidelines i said yeah, bassinet. i lied. the alternative is 40 minutes of sleep in 24 hours, wren screaming, and my tear getting worse. has anyone else just…
not told their doctor the honest setup? i feel guilty but the guidelines assume you’re not recovering from major trauma down there.